not a good year maybe?

ah its been a week or a month or however long friends...and im sad to say this isn't going to be a happy post either...   This blog is turning somewhat into a kind of therapeutic kind of diary...

well two months ago my friend from high school passed away, a shock that hurt everyone i knew. and well yesterday something happened that none of my friends expected... another of our friends passed away...she had a illness and died in hospital shortly after. The doctors in sydney tried everything but it was too late, she fell asleep and never woke up and at 10 they pronounced her dead. A shock to everyone. I knew her well for four years...i saw her every morning in contact and she was my only friend in it. it seems not many good things are happening this year.
I miss her so much and as it is shocking it feels like one after the other... he died on the 24 of march and she on the 25th of may.

My thoughts go out to your family and closer friends little stephie, you had a lovely soul and heart. I will treasure every morning from 2007 to 2010 with you
you were too young to leave and i am so thankful to you're mum for telling us everything that was happening. I give them all the love i have because no parent should have to bury their child.
sleep friend, i will meet you and sean in heaven.

                                               

Something for anyone

 Ah its been to long~ it was easter i while ago and now i feel really slack ;___;
but i was so busy~! it was the holidays and i was always with my bf constantly through the whole break, and thats because we dont get to see eachother all the time now...because of school....
so we just talk on the phone for hours!!!
Some pictures of me at my first day back at school, the break was only a month which went by so quickly too

 Oh yeah at our college, we sit in this massive pile of leaves ahaha, when the janitor cleans them into a nice tidy pile for us they are knee deep. its so comfy buutt a hassle because they get everywhere!!
its well worth it although~

 

 

NEW LOOK~

It was my birthday yesterday!

finally 17~
time flies by so fast it seems! soon i can get my P plates for my car O:
anyway i had such a nice birthday, i got so many wonderful things and i wanted to show some of them

number one:
and the most important~ a ring from my boyfriend of four years, its a promise ring
to marry me someday
he is so sweet and loving, and on the inside it says his name so he is always with me when i am lonly or miss him and he cant be there~ so sweet and loving...and expensive -___-
i don't even want to know how much it was >__<
i loved you when i met you in our first year of high school and i still love you now, its been nearly five years and i couldn't be more in love...
i hope he does not read this >___>  

number 2~
is a gift from my step-dad!
its a doctor who tardis cookie box, which lights up and makes the "VVSSHH VSSSHHH" noises!

AMAZING!!! i love it SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH, all my friends are so jealous

 number 3
is some lovely boots i have wanted for a while from a store called Valley girl
such nice stuff! well...sometimes!
they are very high, but so comfy and its close to winter now so i will wear them lots!

AH lovely coat for winter from my mum! so nice and warm!
i love it to bits and it goes nice with my ring Oho ho ho ho
its nearly lolita style the way it puffs out on me haha i will take some photos of me in it sometime...

here are some crappy photos of me with the hair i dont like U___U
sorry to whine but i really hate it hahaha
oh well i bet in a week or so i will love it...
i also look very washed out and well i had the flu and it was cold but i had to go meet my bf, i was so sick but i had to go meet him in the city *CRY* oh well, there's my excuse haha.
why is it every romantic meet i have with my bf i am sick? i was sick on Valentines day aswell
UGGHHHHHH 

also here is a hk wallet i got to add to my hello kitty collection <3




 

And to my friend up in heaven now, i love you

its been a week and i still miss you so much

Goodbye, blue eyes

goodbye for now

LOL dyed my hair! it was ment to be BROWN T^T
ITS BLLAACCCKK
oh well it was only a semi-permanent i guess, so my mum says it will wash out into a brown  ahaha its alright for now -___-
ANYWAY i have not been posting because its been test week! i had two a Essay for english and a test for maths, i hate maths im so craaap at it. and recently a friend of mine passed away ):

they read out this poem at his funeral and, i really liked it.
Think of me as one at rest,
For me you should not weep,
I have no pain, no troubled thoughts,
For I am just asleep.
The living thinking me that was,
Is now forever still.
And life goes on without me
As time forever will.

i will always remember you, wherever you are i hope your happy friend.






ANYWAY its my birthday soon :)
im going to the pancake house with my boyfriend, ah i wonder what he will get me! maybe a wedding ring? lol jokes ahahaha~
anyway its school holidays now, time to rest, and hopefully start blogging more!
<3

ChuStyles

 

                                                                                                                           

                                           I know, no updates just me being a moocher
                                                     OH WELL :)
                   no i will update maybe next week or late this week with some REAL stuff haha


                                                                                    xxx

And another :D

This is       SYRY-Online's Giveaway!

so many beautiful makeups and skin care things i want!!!  T^T
I HOPE I WIN!

Giveaways!

This time i will try out another lovely giveaway!

sEpia memorys giveaway    <--

Good luck to everybody in it :)

Caramel coffee's first giveaway!!!~

  

i want it SO BADLY~ i am only new i dont think i will get it haha
oh well no harm in trying~ it ends near my birthday!"
<3< 3 wish me luck!

Small update because IM SO TIRED ;____;

Awful photo reflects my awful mood -___-"
AH sorry i haven't posted in a while, college takes up my life it seems!
anyway yes busy busy busy, oh and i have to say i pray for everyone who has loved ones in japan and japan itself, such a horrible thing to happen. AND SO FAST, i woke up one morning and BAM it was on the news everywhere, i have a friend living there but he is alright. so relieved ;__;
anyway some products i wish to share~

My favourite makeup of all time, JILLSTUART

so lovely, i got a blush and lip gloss and i must say even though they are so expensive they are worth every cent.

 New kitten heels from Forever New they are not very high so i can wear them to school <3

I just had to put up a photo of my wallet Hohoho so cute~

and lastly my little dollhouse things Tea set with cake

 Anyway i tried -_____-
JYA NE

School has started T^T

I HATE MY A-HOLE SCHOOL SO MUCH.

it has some really nice people but i dont want to be there T^T i want to be at school with my boyfriend!
its no fair! well i see him tomorrow~ Hohoho were going to see 'i am number four', sounds bad but i want to spend lots of time with him...
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< oh thats how i went to school~ haha good first impression? i made lots of friends and lots of them who are into japanese!

my school is pretty much a korean/chinese/arts kids school hahaha no joke but i really like that! :) means lots of pretty people~
annnyywwaaayy i dont really have much else!
i will post some time soon
Jya ne<3